my beau

so. i miss you.
just like you said i would.
only more so.
i've been coached my whole life
how to choose the one to be with.
it's not at all how i thought it would be.
i've felt the tingle before.
been on a pedestal.
felt anxious and star struck.
but none of that's it.

it's being content.
happy with who you are
when you are with that person.
free to be you.
laughing.
playing.
sharing everything
with out fear.
patience.
trust.
wanting to spend time together.
spotting each other through life's
challenges, opportunities, success,
failures.
rejoicing for each other's happiness
even if it means hurting for yourself.
forgiveness.
the ability to disagree openly.
knowing they are the one
you want to turn to
in every situation.
comfort.
and most of all
best friends.

you know me.
my hopes and doubts,
laughter and tears,
good and bad.
through all of it
you remain in defending
yourself as a friend.
that amazes me.

with no one else
have i been so free,
so safe
in just being me.
that i treasure.
i'm flooded with memories
in which you take part
full hearted, rather
peaceful or lashing out.

you always truly cared.
just as you support my
thoughts, dreams,
my art and my life,
i admire yours.
i'm forever thankful
for the truth
that you are.

love letters

You were like being swept off my feet
so abruptly
but instead of falling
I found myself dancing on stars
and by all means
not alone.
Held tight by arms and hands
but drifting
and all of the sudden
free from what I've known and predicted
in absolute bliss.

Snow falls
beautiful with meandering grace
I watch from my window.
Sky: gray- hint of blue
I become absorbed
in missing you.

You are my love.
My life.
How I miss you so.
The minutes turn into tears
by the dozen.
How I long to fall into you
to feel your arms
and lips
and be lost in us
You are my destination.
These days are trivial
meaningless
except for the moment
at the end of the day
when I mark one more box off the calendar
putting me closer to the square
filled with your name.