tossable

sooner or later it was all bound to come out
i almost had myself convinced that it really could be ok
just keep moving and the hurt wont catch up
instead it grew and grew as it rolled up behind me
and just when i was too tired to keep running
it all came down over me
i didnt think id feel this worthless.. this not worth IT
that i would be not enough to make it worth working at
and to have to question if its because i am simply not what he wants
or not wantable
really i should feel blessed
its taken this many years to run into being pushed aside
but it doesnt come across that hopefull
when being alone is all thats around
its too hard to stay like this, not me like this
but i cant remember her
and if i could
would i still be tossable