my addiction

you are the drug i can't resist
you come in and i can't let go
but the lies,the tears,
the choke of the pain
my body doesn't want to let you out again
you should have never been here
i should have never given in
now i rock in my hollowness
as the withdrawal sets in
cradle my head, sweat and pace
wishing to end it and prolong it the same
how could you do this to the one you named
its not your fault, i know i was weak
i begged for it and now i can't sleep
my heart burns, my veins throb,
i can't sit still
my thoughts race and my body aches
and still has the chills
i'm addicted, a mess, a user in all
i never imagined love could be this down fall
if only it were over, yet i ask for more
am i crazy, how do you have this much power
killing me, torture, when will i let go
afraid of myself because i'll never say no
you haunt me, you linger,
then finally fade
yet next time i see you
can i turn you away